Things are for sure different

Things are for sure different, and I don't know why, but I got some suggestions. Tonight I was ministering and a person came up to me and said they were living in a shell. For some reason he could not explain what a shell was but I knew exactly what a shell was. I had no words that spoke to his soul or I didn't know something clever to do. All I knew how to do was to hug them, and it was my first and only option. I pulled him close and as I stood there with our heart close. He opened his heart and he heard me speak to him in words that only a soul can make sense of. And as the time passed I grabbed him and let his tear run onto my black shirt and it was so ok. He let his tears carve a trek of moisture down his face and my v-neck sucked up the access. And as I stood there our hearts beat at the same speed and I knew that I was hugging him the same way the Jesus would hug someone. It was perfect and oh so simple! I didn't have to say a word or declare anything over him, maybe I could have but, what do you say to someone when you are talking the language of love. There was a time when I would work and counsel but now things are so different. Things are for sure different!

What I learn when I look

What I learn when I am looking is that this thing is not as hard as we make it. I am learning people aren't as scary as they seem or I make them. They are little kids no matter how old or big they are. And even if they act like they don't want you to love them, they are starving for it. I see that no matter how pretty someone is they are self aware. And it does not take much to look someone in the eye and say "I love you and you are beautiful and you can't change the way I see you." I know my job isn't to work it is to rest no matter how much work I am doing at the time. I may get sleepy but I am never tired. I learn that if you look in someones eyes long enough they will tell you their story, if they want to or not. The eyes are a narrator that speaks from the heart to the soul. I understand that understanding is all that is needed to keep people from thinking they have to prove something to someone that has already proofread the document and edited it. He needs no second edition. I work on knowing nothing and making no assumptions about things that I hear second hand. I go to the source and listen. What I learn when I am looking is that I am in love with everything and it is the pain of the world that tries to convince me that I am looking for something that I already have. I learned I am as much as I believe I am and can only be stopped by the limitation I believe can limit me. I am infinite from an eternal place bridging the gab between an understanding and a reality that is off. I have learned this thing is easy and it is only as serious as you make it and the way you think will determine your day.

What I find

I am finding that I like to travel, and the best part about traveling is the people. The fun part about going to a place and getting stay with people, is the people that you get to stay with. I am in the Woodlands Washington near Portland and these people are amazing. You can tell when people understand family and take it serious to not be serious and enjoy life. I am overwhelmed by the love in this little town of 5,000 or at least by the few of them I have met. I went 4 wheeling today and it blew my mind. What a perfect day for off-loading, sky clear, not to cold and not to hot. With all the traveling I can forget how much Jesus just likes for me to be me and do new things. It is like He has to remind me to jump off of something and stand on my head sometimes. I tell you what, I am natural at going fast and falling off of things. But I think the faster you go, the faster you learn how to do something. I have a small addiction to pushing things to the limit and I know my Father in Heaven is cool with it. Well He made me this way! I got out there and stalled out, peeled out, flew into the mud (face first), got dirty, wet, and nasty. With all the bad riding it was marvelous how much fun I had and how fast I got pretty good. Of course my ATV was an automatic and I am still learning about how to make the clutch pop, but I went for it. There are times in my life where I see opportunities that may cause me to put in more cards then I have at the time. First thought I always have is, "lets do it we can get more cards". I want to live a life of great gambles, great learning experiences, and great rewards. A life that is so fun and full of risk that I am hanging on the edge all the time. But I think on the edge is where you will find the diamonds that no one else can find. On the edge is where the reward is and the big stories that make history. I have even decided not to let the past hurts decide how I make decisions. Put my heart on the line and see what happens. No matter what the risk I am going to love like I got an endless source of it because the truth is, I do have a endless source. Maybe I am crazy, well I am a little nuts, but this life is told by the storytellers, written by the writers, and lived by gambling lovers. And I am all the above!

I am going to write some tonight

I have a phrase that is always in my mind, "I am going to write some tonight". Most of the time I am so tired and ready to sleep, I don't even have that much time. And then it seems by the time my head hits a pillow I am up again, off on the next adventure or on a plane to the next city. Don't think that I am complaining because I love what I do but I am learning to find time for things that are in my heart. Not to long ago I had the realization if I was going to be a great writer I have to WRITE. So with that known I am writing a little at a time and getting the things that are in my mind on paper or internet. So many times we drag our feet on things that are dreams, when we can start now and do the things that make us happy. The rewards are huge and the journey is part of the fun. I have never been a person that writes a bunch, I have friends that write pages and pages everyday and take an account of all the things that they have done that day. I also have friends that write books, novels, and articles. I have found lately I get such joy out of writing and I am a writer. I said that to myself just now and it sounded so good. I think we are what we want to be before we become what we want to be and it starts with just saying who we are. I am a writer and I am a great writer and many will walk this journey with me by reading the things that are on my heart and mind. I will do all the things that are set up for me in this time I spend on the earth and I am a success. Just saying that feels so good!

It has been a while

I know, I know, it has been a while since I have written anything. Not that I haven't had much to write about. So much has happened since my last entry. I have loved, traveled, dreamed, healed the sick, and fed the hungry. I really feel like now is the time to get back on the horse and start writing again. One huge highlight of where I have been since the last entry, is I have been to Israel and she is so amazing. If Israel was a women I would be married right now! She is beautiful, complicated, is the object of many mens love, and most of all she has His heart. Just so you know she is not that big only 44 miles wide. I read in the bible and think this place is as big as Asia. She is small and perfect. I saw the sites and rode the rides but what I really fell in love with, was the people. There is something about the people of that place that made my heart jump.

What else is going on with me? I am happy! Jesus is showing his heart for happiness through me and I am use to being the object of His affection. I have found a steady diet of smiling really makes my day so happy and full of fun. I am traveling everyday, all the time, and it is amazing. I enjoy being with people and meeting new people. Well for the most part I want to say I am back and full of fun stuff to tell the world. By the way this is us in the Dead Sea floating around.